It's not fair

Time passes
And still you sit in the back of my mind
Waiting for the perfect time
To creep your way to the front of my thoughts
It's not fair
I didn't want to lose you
I didn't want to leave
I loved you
I still fucking do
But I knew it wouldn't last
No matter how many plans we made
Together
No matter how much you promised
I knew the words meant nothing
So why am I still thinking about you
The way you ran your fingertips
Along my skin
The way you kissed my lips
So gently
The way you said
I love you
Each word passing your lips with
A velvety smoothness
I can still hear
Your voice rings in my ears
My heart tells me it is you
It was always you
But I can't have you
It's not fair
It's not fair
It's not fair
I want you more than
I want air to breath
I want you more than
I want food to sustain my life
I want you
I want you
I want you
I need you
I want to be the one
To stand by your side
Forever
It's not fair
That I have to live without
It's not fucking fair
I don't understand
What happened to us
I made you happy
Didn't I
I know you did
For me
With you
I forgot about
All the problems I had
I forgot how to breath
When you kissed me
I forgot I had a body
When you touched me
It felt like our souls melded into one
You are the one
I can't forget
You are the one that got away
But not because
I let you go
It's not fair
I love you
I have always
But I can't call you mine
It's not fair
I want to be
With you for eternity
But I can't
I want to call you selfish
But I can't
Because maybe it wasn't all you