Evil Queen

The holes on my wrist remember the embers laid against my skin
Four more cracks my heart has to bear
The tears running down my cheek wash away the painted smile
I am not okay
I am scared for myself
This pain that I'm living with is driving me mad
But I have yet to stop it
Why should I
Maybe I wish for it to take me away
Allow me to bid farewell to this life of torture
That I bring upon myself
Where is my Evil Queen
Toting a poison apple
Where is my Maleficent
Cursing my life
I feel like I'm locked away
Who is to blame
But myself
I alone
I want to die
Although I am scared
Of death
I know I will be missed
But is it all worth this torment
My soul is damaged beyond repair
And others are left to suffer in my wake
Free me
Before I cause more chaos
I love you all
But I do not love myself.