Will you?

When we lay side by side
Will you stick your hands in my pockets
And pull me closer
If my lips get cold
Will you press yours against them
And let your warmth spread to my soul
When tears streak my cheeks
Will you wipe them away
And hug me tight
When my will to live disappears
And my want to try runs away
Will you stick around
Or leave as well
When I can't pull myself
From the depth of my bed
Will you reach out a hand
When I forget to eat
Or take care of myself
Will you be there to pick up the slack
When I've had enough
And give up on myself
Will you take away the blade
When I want to die
Will you make me remember
Why I can't

It's not fair

Time passes
And still you sit in the back of my mind
Waiting for the perfect time
To creep your way to the front of my thoughts
It's not fair
I didn't want to lose you
I didn't want to leave
I loved you
I still fucking do
But I knew it wouldn't last
No matter how many plans we made
Together
No matter how much you promised
I knew the words meant nothing
So why am I still thinking about you
The way you ran your fingertips
Along my skin
The way you kissed my lips
So gently
The way you said
I love you
Each word passing your lips with
A velvety smoothness
I can still hear
Your voice rings in my ears
My heart tells me it is you
It was always you
But I can't have you
It's not fair
It's not fair
It's not fair
I want you more than
I want air to breath
I want you more than
I want food to sustain my life
I want you
I want you
I want you
I need you
I want to be the one
To stand by your side
Forever
It's not fair
That I have to live without
It's not fucking fair
I don't understand
What happened to us
I made you happy
Didn't I
I know you did
For me
With you
I forgot about
All the problems I had
I forgot how to breath
When you kissed me
I forgot I had a body
When you touched me
It felt like our souls melded into one
You are the one
I can't forget
You are the one that got away
But not because
I let you go
It's not fair
I love you
I have always
But I can't call you mine
It's not fair
I want to be
With you for eternity
But I can't
I want to call you selfish
But I can't
Because maybe it wasn't all you

Evil Queen

The holes on my wrist remember the embers laid against my skin
Four more cracks my heart has to bear
The tears running down my cheek wash away the painted smile
I am not okay
I am scared for myself
This pain that I'm living with is driving me mad
But I have yet to stop it
Why should I
Maybe I wish for it to take me away
Allow me to bid farewell to this life of torture
That I bring upon myself
Where is my Evil Queen
Toting a poison apple
Where is my Maleficent
Cursing my life
I feel like I'm locked away
Who is to blame
But myself
I alone
I want to die
Although I am scared
Of death
I know I will be missed
But is it all worth this torment
My soul is damaged beyond repair
And others are left to suffer in my wake
Free me
Before I cause more chaos
I love you all
But I do not love myself.