Something

There is something about you
Something that calls to me
That draws me in
Is it your voice
Or is it the way you make me laugh
At almost anything
The feeling I get
When I think about you
It's hard to put into words
Like my mind goes silent
And my heart jumps forward
Trying to push its way through
To my lips
Desperately beating against my tongue
Trying to get to you
Trying to pry open my jaw
To make its way to you
Throwing together words
That shouldn't be seen
Not now
Maybe not ever
It just keeps whispering to me
Reassuring me that it will be alright
Just give in
It tells me to try
It tells me to not be stupid
Each thing contradicts the last
Do
Don't
Speak up
Be quiet
Let him in
Build a barrier
Throw me to him
Give me a chance
Keep me in
Protect me
What do I do
What do I say
It's so hard to shield myself
Because
There's something about you

Pendulum

Tick tock
Nothingness washing over me
Calling out into the void
Loneliness wrapping its cold, bony fingers around my heart
Squeezing until it breaks
The ache spreading throughout my soul
Everything I've done
Everything I've said
Rushing back
Surrounding my body in darkness
Where are my thoughts running off too
Why is my will fading
Everywhere I turn
Something isn't right
What am I doing wrong
I'm calling out for help
Will you help me
Please
My heart is swinging on a chain
Crashing against the walls of my confinement
With each pass the end nears
With each second time is lost
But still back and forth it goes
Like a pendulum
Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock

Mira's Backstory

Miras Back-story

Born to Keya and Aien Zinmoria, Mira was the youngest of two, her brother Goren proceeded her by five years. At the age of forty they both began training. Traditionally the male practices in combat and the female trains in the art of magic. After years of training to no avail, Mira's parents broken heartedly discovered that she was incapable of holding even the tiniest bit of magic in her palms. Keya and Aien took Mira to friends, asking for help in her turmoil. When no one could help they became perturbed. In their last effort to find her magic they took her to stay at a nearby monastery. Urging her to find inner peace with the monks, in hopes that she can learn the ways of her ancestors. During this stretch Mira spent her free time in the forest. She felt content around the woodland creatures, as they knew not of her failures. Mira grew close to the animals. They made her feel normal. She stayed with the monk for eleven years, before finally returning home to her dispirited parents.

By the time Mira was ninety the magic had still not stirred in her mind or soul. Goren felt sorry for his sister, he tried to cheer her up by bringing her sweets and books. When those did nothing to light her face he brought her his dagger.

The metal gleamed in the light and her eyes shone as she stared at it. A jewel was placed by the leather-wrapped hilt. She placed her thumb on the edge of the blade to test the sharpness and a small trickle of blood danced across the metal. Goren told his sister that the blade was now hers.

  Shortly after she acquired the dagger from her brother she began training with her father in combat. Her brother, Goren, started training with their mother in the magic.

As Mira came of age she began preparing to leave her home in search of a blades master to further her skill. Goren offered to aid in her travels but Mira declined. She told him to stay home with their parents. Mira was offered a horse but she declined that as well. Her time with the animals of the forest opened her heart. She would not make a mount suffer at her expense. And what would happen to her stead if she were to perish? With her mind open and her farewells in place she gathered her things and set out on her journey.